Cipher I kid you not I understand this frustration fully. For me it is making music. I thought it was a good idea to go back and learn at my age. Man I don't miss the final projects. I have one right now and I don't want to let my team down. I was listening and trying to make this epic song for our project but the more I listen the more I left it was missing something and I just couldn't wrap my head around it.
Solution! Basically I left and took a short break and when I came back I found the music to be just fine. I think it is best when we take some time off of the one thing we are hyper focus on and then when we return we see a new light.
In my opinion your writing is amazing Cipher so keep at it. No one is perfect and that is surprisingly the beauty of ones work. 😊